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“For you [God] created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.” (Psalm 139:13-18)
“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.” (1 John 4:16)
For many years I struggled to know that I am loved. Likewise, for many years I also struggled to believe I am of any worth or value. Nearly my entire young life I strived to make myself ‘worthy’ of being loved through how I look, what I possess and especially, through what I achieved.
Consequently, God’s unconditional love for me was often a struggle for me to truly understand, for I thought that I had to ‘do’ something in order to earn it. However, I also knew that my lack of understanding God’s love did not change the fact that God does indeed love me unconditionally.
One night I earnestly prayed that God would reveal his love for me and that I would understand it and feel it experientially in my heart. As I was praying, a picture of a fetus came into my mind. Immediately I perceived this fetus was me before I had done anything to make myself worthy’ of being loved. As God gave me this vision, he also outpoured a torrent of his love and his acceptance of me into my heart. I experienced a very deep miraculous healing in my heart at the time of this revelation, especially in the area of love and self-worth/value.
The number of battles I have with these issues has greatly decreased since this revelation, but when they do arise I always go back and remember this revealed truth that God loves me inherently as I am.
The ultimate display of God’s love for us is when he sent Jesus to rescue us from our sins through his atoning death on the cross. He did this to save us from sins and their consequences (death and hell) and bring us into a loving, experiential, personal relationship with him. (See “Message“).
“Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:7-8)
“This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.” (1 John 4:10)
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)