Print Sizes: S, M, L | Greeting Cards | ONFS, Acrylic on Canvas, 26 cm x 26 cm (10.5″ x 10.5″)
This painting came out of a very powerful experience in which God revealed his personal love for me into my heart. It was the single most powerful catalyst that God used to heal me from years rejection and all of the damage it had caused in my life. Psalm 139 is a powerful testimony of God’s personal love and purpose for each person he has created, even before we are born.
“For you [God] created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.” (Psalm 139:13-18)
“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.” (1 John 4:16)
In my younger years I was rejected and mistreated by many people. As a result, I struggled to believe that I was loved or had any worth or value. This made me continually strive to make myself ‘worthy’ of being loved through how I looked, what I possessed and, especially, through what I achieved.
Unsurprisingly, it was also a struggle for me to believe in and truly understand God’s unconditional love for me. I always felt that I had to ‘do’ something to earn it. However, I also knew that my lack of understanding God’s love did not change the fact that God does indeed love me unconditionally.
One night I earnestly prayed that God would reveal his love for me and that I would understand it and feel it experientially in my heart. As I was praying, a picture of a fetus came into my mind. Immediately I perceived this fetus was me before I had done anything to make myself worthy’ of being loved. As God gave me this vision, he also outpoured a torrent of his love and acceptance of me into my heart. I experienced a very deep miraculous emotional healing in my heart at the time of this revelation, especially in the area of love and self-worth/value.
My battles with rejection (and all of its associated issues) greatly decreased after this revelation. However, whenever they arose again I would always go back and remember this revealed truth that God loves me inherently as I am. Eventually, over time, truth completely swallowed up the lies, and the truth I once struggled to see and believe I know now by revelation and personal experience. Furthermore, being secure in God’s love and acceptance of me has made me more resilient to the rejection of people, for I know that I will have to continue to deal with people rejecting me for as long as I live.
The ultimate display of God’s love for us is when he sent Jesus to rescue us from our sins through his atoning death on the cross. He did this to save us from sins and their consequences (death and hell) and bring us into a loving, experiential, personal relationship with him. (See “Message“).
“Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:7-8)
“This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.” (1 John 4:10)
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)